Somewhere in between

"I don’t get nearly enough credit in life for the things I manage not to say."

Meg Rosoff, How I Live Now (via enchants)

(Source: larmoyante, via jerulo)

Hedonism - give me hedonism!  I want an endorphin rush.

Is the internet so popular because we can all contribute, no matter what it is and - perhaps more importantly - no matter what other people think, because you can be anyone:  anonymous or the person you’ve always wanted to be in real life?

Schnapps

The worst peer pressure comes from family. When they don’t speak your language and you don’t speak their pure language well - and you definitely can’t understand their dialect - and you have trouble understanding their regional accent.  When it’s just your aunt & uncle and their friends, and you, without parents or siblings.  When they’re shouting your meal. When they’ve already bought you the drink.

It’s medicine water for a stomach ache. It warms you up.

Eeerhh.  I shudder as it goes down my throat.  It burns as it shimmies down. Yuuuck, where’s my chaser? 

I swear I felt something.  My peripheral vision was shaky, and I didn’t want to try to listen to the foreign conversation, even though I normally would. The candle… it flickers.  My belly…

The tavern door opens every so often and lets in a flood of chilly mountain air and new patrons, shaking snow of their jackets.

The warmth I felt I would not quite call warmth. It was not “Gosh, I might have to take my jumper off”, rather more of a “Ha!  I’m not going to get cold during the next hour”.

Worth it?  I guess. But I think I prefer the real water.

Snus

I’m interested.

Parked under my top lip it sat, quite happily perched until I speak.  Slip.  I push it back under. 

- I was so awkward getting it to stay under my lip. You’re a natural.

I check my watch: 2 mins. Unlike my friend, it creeps to me.  Was that..? I think it… Okay, now my head definitely feels funny.  Headspin.  I can’t seem to focus on anything properly.  My head can move easily from side to side.  I lose balance, but not by much.  I sit down on the bar stool.  My friends look at me:

- How is it?

I quickly lose interest in conversation and look around the teens’ club.  The coloured lights grab my attention - flashing. My mind slips back into a previous experience, but I snatch it back when I realise.  Real head rush now. 

I get up and wander a short distance, to see how it affects my movement. Nothing much at all; I just have to be careful when I’m on one foot.  It had only been a 10 m stretch but I was shocked to see that I’d come even that far - it had not felt like it.  I sit back down. My head is in one position, then facing the other direction - but I don’t remember what happened in between! Living is now interspersed with missing moments.

My periphery is distorted like corrugated glass and listening is such a hassle, but if I concentrate it’s okay.  But such an effort.

My thighs begin to feel a warmth spreading through them - the quadriceps. The warmth brings weakness, and I can feel it like little honeycomb spheres within the muscle. My arms next. Tiredness settles like a gentle wave.  But it’s uncomfortable - is that nausea?

I’ll keep it in to experience it.

Yeah, it’s interesting. Do you feel that too?

Slip. Back under.

- Are you okay?  Make sure you don’t taste it!  Some of mine came apart - it tastes horrible.

I’ll keep it in to experience it.

I want to get out of this.

I wipe my finger several times over the gum to get rid of the taste, wishing I had water. Saliva must suffice.

- Are you okay? 
Yeah.

… - Are you okay? Ready to dance?
I feel like sleeping. It’s getting better though. Give me 5 minutes.

Okay, let’s dance now.

Penitentes. I have yet to understand them.

"Consumer expenditure on alcohol in the United States in 1999 was $116.2 billion; of that, $22.5 billion was attributed to underage drinking and $34.4 billion was attributed to adult excessive drinking."

Foster SE, et al. - Journal of the American Medical Association

(Source: http)

What it costs to fight acute childhood malnutrition

doctorswithoutborders:

• It’s estimated just over $6 billion a year will cover the costs of supplying enough therapeutic and supplemental ready-to-use foods to fight acute childhood malnutrition worldwide.

"Everything that I learned from you, that you stole from me, I’m gonna give him. So I figured the combinations going to be very hard to beat Arnold, very hard to beat."

to Arnold Schwarzenegger, in Pumping Iron

Vodka intimate, an affair with isolation in a blackheath cell
Extinguishing the fires in my private hell

- Fugazi

This is a lolly in the Pick and Mix at the Copenhagen Airport. Does anyone else see a similarity to Psilocybe cubensis?

(Source: ohhellyess, via dare-to-be-healthy)

(Source: g-r-a-f-i-c-o-s)

NY Goal #1: Do a Chinese firedrill.